new beginnings

reflection

It's interesting how it's in human nature to strive for greater heights, and pursue our ambitions. For the longest time I felt like I was never really passionate about anything, at least in terms of career path and work. I felt that as long as I had my partner, I did not care what I did. But unfortunately that relationship came to an end, and I was left... emotionally confused. Suddenly alone, I wasn't sure how to continue. I had a job, I had an income.. but there's been that feeling of emptiness still. I always assumed it was just my gender identity, and that I still haven't gotten to transition physically - but clearly it's more..

goals, ambitions

After working for a year, things have been tough. I have lost motivation to do my hobbies, I struggled to do even the most basic of tasks and fell into what felt like a depression (whilst now in hindsight, I'm quite certain it wasn't). Up until this month, March 2025. I don't know what it was, but I started small.. I got back into reading, started doing skincare consistently and never missed my vitamins. Such small things helped me snowball my entire life the direction I want. Whilst still not really having ambitions, I have a clear goal and a decisive path that I want to take, and oh my god has this been liberating. I am making plans, I am thinking long term and evaluating my options in life. Not only that, I have amazing friends that support me and encourage me to keep going <3. 

Most people my age have moved far past me, and even younger folks are taking their masters and making names for themselves. The feeling that I'm too late has lingered far too long, and I wish to do something about it. That's why I'm going to try my hardest to succeed in whatever I have planned for my future. University, good grades, a degree to secure me a consistent job... and not to mention, loving and caring people around me. The latter is already in place, now all is left is time, effort and hard work for the former. 

In other, simpler words.. everything will be okay. No matter how far behind you feel, no matter how insecure you may be, things will eventually work out. You will find strength. <3

xoxo,

Kimi