More ranting < 3

For starters, life is still pretty much shit. I sit in class simply clinging to the slow and agonizing hours that drag on through the day's I spend in this hell built school. Even being at home hasn't exactly felt like my "true" home. Honestly, I update this now, 2 days after I initially began to write this random silly tangent of mine. I sit in my history class and wallow in just how truly alone I am.. not even the teacher acknowledges my presence unless I leave early. (I leave when we have only 1 minute left in class, it's stupid to overreact to such.) The kid's don't even bother to include anyone, always scurrying away to their little groups, shutting away anyone they claim "weird" or "different". It' doesn't matter my efforts in the class, how well I do my work or if I even do it to begin with.. It's all so pointless. I've given up on efforts in fitting in, what's the need to pry myself to fit in if I'll only be seen as a 'helpless loner'. 

I update this today, march 14th. Friday. Day before spring break. I just got back from my lunch, what I thought I could spend with my partner, turned out into a complete yet expected disappointing outcome. I left the lunchroom with a freshly, and a pretty swollen bruise on my lower femur and upper ankle. He kicked me with as much force as he could apply, right into my leg, twice. I can't fucking calm down now, Im furious, he didn't let me even fend for myself. He walked off with silence completely disregarding what he did... he didn't bother to reply or even find me after his little pity shit. Like a child who was told "no!" by their mother. I seriously cannot fathom as to why one would even think to do such, especially to someone who he claimed he "loves". Im furious with him, with his love, and the way he acted. Like a baby, like an idiot, a wannabe sadist. I won't let him slide so easily, ether I report him.. or I'll beat his ass. Maybe both. 

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