the human experience and the isolation that comes with self awareness- a little smth ive been writing

The human experience and the isolation that comes with self-awareness  

 You cannot make everyone think and feel as deeply as you do. This is your tragedy because you understand them, but they do not understand you. Is a shortened version of a quote by Daniel Saint, I find this quote interesting as it expresses very true statement, you may think so much and so deeply about everything in this world, everything about people and their feelings and how they connect and you might think that this would make it easier to go about interacting with people but that is simply not the case. Thinking so deeply about this can be very isolating as you may be one of the few people that think so deeply about life. People will not understand you, maybe you won’t even understand you, no matter how hard or try to understand humanity and yourself there are so many questions that go unanswered, right? Or maybe it is just that there are no answers, and everything does not really matter. And maybe it is that you are completely self-aware, and you can see that there is no point, but still, you continue on doing things even if there really is no reason to do them. There is no particular point and knowing that is a difficult thing, because you can see that there is no reason to do anything, why should you do things you don’t want to? But also knowing that there really is nothing it’s hard to enjoy things that you once enjoyed. These are the consequences of self-awareness. It is not your fault; you are simply only human.  

The concept of reality and humanity’s struggle to perceive it. 

The human experience- Many people struggle with being anything at all. It’s hard to accept the fact that we are here, well for me at least. I can’t seem to fathom the thought that I am here right now, I can’t go back to what’s already been, but I also can’t just go to what’s in the future, I will get there eventually but there’s so much time in between. The time will pass, nonetheless. People say that life is short, but I feel like the deeper and more aware you are the longer it feels. I feel like it’s taking so long to get anywhere at all, but I still have such a long time to go. The more you think about the question the less of an answer there becomes. Is it that there’s so much for humans to learn about what the purpose of life is or is it just that we selfishly can’t even begin to consider that there’s no purpose or reason. We can’t imagine the fact that we aren’t needed for this world and that we aren’t as important as we hope to be. I believe we fear death because we’re scared that it is all we are here for, scared that we are here just to die, so we make things to believe in because we selfishly can't believe that we simply will not be here and are not needed.  People fear nothing; nothingness. But why fear it? It's the same as before birth, so why fear something we already know? It's not that I don't believe in a god or something greater than us, it's not that at all, I believe in much greater powers than us, but I also believe that we’ve selfishly created the concept of a god saving us after death to cope with the emptiness that becomes.  

God will not save you, nor will your guilt purify you. 

People seem to victimize themselves and falsely believe that that their guilt will make them innocent; pure. They wish and crave to become of what God's descendants were; Angels. Because purity is the closest they can get to God, to the power, to more. They believe that their guilt makes the clean, since they are blinded with the wrenching feeling of guilt, they cannot look outside their own, they believe that their recognition of their mistakes and wrong doings will save them. They repent for they want to be cleansed of the bad, the hurt, the guilt. But you feel that guilt for a reason, why else? Accept your guilt and accept your mistakes, you are not bad. You are just unpure. But no one is, so stop being so harsh on yourself.