the medication is shit

I hate pills so much my parents and my psychologist recommend that I take medication, but I really don't think it will help much. the psychiatrist told me not to worry since half the world takes medication every day But it doesn't work for me, with or without pills, I still feel the same. Fear invades me anyway, there's nothing I can do to stop me from crying and being scared. I don't want anything nothingness must be such a peaceful place where I wouldn't worry about anything and would sleep forever. I remember someone once told me that I looked like piglet from winnie the pooh for being a coward, a scaredy-cat and stuff like that I didn't say anything at that moment nor will I say anything now. that moment literally left me without opinions or words to say but I think piglet is a very cute character. I'm crying this is so stupid