vent?? TW COCSA

tw: cocsa??

so like i have an older brother and when i was a kid he used to playfully slap/punch between my legs. it couldntve been in an inappropriate way cause i think he didnt even know where kids came from (he was like 7 and i was 6) but like i still feel rlly gross thinking abt it and even rn he always makes smegss jokes,, like a month ago i was on my knees looking for something and he walked by and stopped to pretend i was giving him a bj.. i started yelling and stuff and my mom said im the disgusting one that makes everything inappropriate

i js need to know if this is sa or something or im js overreacting??

cause like when i told my mom abt the whole punching between my legs stuff (like a month after it started happening) she said we were both disgusting and immediately thought we were like 1ncest0us (idk if i spelled it right) even tho we didnt know where babies came from.. it rlly messes with my brain even like 8 yrs later