I feel older, I feel...

Many people say they feel younger than they are. Ok, sure, I don't. I've always felt older, and it's gotten worse. Not only now I feel like a middle aged divorced father but also I feel like I time traveled. 

This is not how I'm supposed to be. Not how I'm supposed to be living, in this time. 

Everyone around me seems to have second intentions. Or then to be laughing at me. Or then, very rarely, they don't understand, they don't comprehend, and they don't care to. Which is truly understandable. I am pretty ignorant to everyone else. 

Why do I have to be precived! I can't be invisible? I am invisible, in the wrong ways, and I seem to call all the attention to be, in all the wrong ways aswell. Being invisible can be a curse or a blessing (wooo, scary!)

I am so selfish like this, all me me me... What about you?! What about your eyes as you read this? Do they fall out and the wholes start bleeding and spiders, smelling the blood, call their friends and eat your blood? Then your head start spinning like a possessed motherfucker and it flies away like a chopper in the movies, shhhhhh blood, more blood going everywhere and your phone even stops working because it's so much blood, and you'll need a lot of rice for that. 

I'm a little isolated. So much I feel a foreigner in my head. I didn't remember being like this. Do you remember the way you are? Is it always the same? For everyone?

Questions are useless