my inability to take selfies

for some reason i am just unable to take a normal selfie x__x when im at home it always looks so awkward and i look dead inside. outside the light and background is nicer but i feel even more awkward outside and im unable to even raise the phone... itd be much better to do with a friend because i get more confident around ppl i like and pics look less awkward butttt i dont have friends... im doomed aghfkf