3/10/25

um

well, here's something i wrote

it's kinda messy and random, hope ya don't mind

this again?

i've been hanging out on rooftops recently 

the breeze feels so good on my face

i've wondered how much colder it could get

i wonder how cold my body will get

i've always been so scared so i don't understand

how does this feeling evolve so quickly?

the way of your violent words always gets their way

and why do you act like that when he's 'round?

192 hours fear has possessed me

every phone call is like a gunshot

358 hours wasted away

growing up feels like loosing myself

bit by bit i can cut myself out of your picture

i feel better out of your frame

i can feel the numbers dwindling

how many more minutes of oxygen do you think i have stored in this husk?

i wanna get lost all alone

i wanna become one with the ground

i wanna become nutrients for something better than myself

i don't think ill ever get better

there's so much to do and so little time

how could i possibly make something of myself?

i'm surrounded with my interests and no outlet

was intellect the enemy?

i can hear the ending credits ringing in my ears

i'm the electricity flowing through the metal in my hand

is this all futile?

i can't seem to stop myself

ray out