Feeling like shit.

I'm definitely burnt out. I went to sleep at 5am yesterday morning and woke up at 3pm. I've barely left my bed in 2 days. I skip most of my classes at school. I either sleep too much or too little. I don't do anything. I shower much less often, brush my teeth much less often, wash my clothes every other week. I feel gross. I either eat too much or too little. I started doing drugs, if only occasionally. I smoke sometimes. Fuck. I'm 14 years old, I shouldn't already feel this shit. I just want things to go back to the way they were pre-covid. When I didn't have shit like this to care about. Hopefully traveling will help me feel a bit better.