Peeved off

As I was pissed off that my father had two strokes and one day something that is immaculately terrifying in my opinion I couldn't help but think I was going mad hearing that because usually you don't hear about someone having two strokes at the same time, but there it was. as I was going to go and find out what the fuck was going on with my father, I was cursing and swearing. I had to get the hell out of the damn House somewhere or another I had to do something go to library or right or do something else I was gonna be worth my time and effort. I wasn't gonna take this shit sitting down watching TV or Netflix but then again it looked like that was the case I had to get the hell out of the house so I can stretch my brain if you would like you would stretch your legs when you walk. I needed a breather at this point in time I was cursing and swearing. The people around me were starting to wonder if I was going to blow my stack and it already did happen that time. When I heard about my father having two strokes , then we end up hearing that he had a very bad fever and it turned out. He ended up having Covid among all these strokes at the same time. I was getting more pissed off as a day goes on and I didn't know what to think about the situation, I just wanted to get the hell out  of the situation and clear my mind and see it in a different light at the time. I did not have a cell phone with me. I just had an iPad so I could not communicate with my fucking brother Joey at the time! 

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he was the one that delivered the message to my friends that my father may die. And when I heard this first thing in the morning, I was fucking mad. I'll tell you that much right now. I was going to scream and yell, but I didn't do that road either. I didn't even go and watch TV I just from what I can do in 2020 I ended up writing instead of dealing with my problems then one person had mentioned why why don't we go for a drive now? They say we because I can't drive because I have a PTSD from a childhood Amsterdam that being said I was very interested in where my childhood incident would come from. That would be a story on a later date as I mentioned that I was not able to drive because of PTSD, it is that bad handle the driving even if I'm a passenger and God forgive me I flipped people off just for looking at me funny it's kind of sad to be honest with you !

So they said my name, Joanne why don't you go for a drive with So and So and get a coffee which was fine and dandy I was doing just that and I was enjoying my time just enjoying the coffee, didn't think to bring my iPad or my out of cell phone. I lied. I did have a cell phone to take picture with that being said I was not excited about lying about that to you but anyways, sorry I did not have them on me I had them on charge in my room in the house that I was trying to escape from for a few hours. I was hoping coffee and then catch a few books as in buy a few bucks, but it was still that damn pandemic so I thought maybe the recycle centre or something to that I didn't know what I was gonna do about this whole situation. This shit show that I was dealing With !  I was going through the motions of drinking the coffee. It was a Tim Hortons ice cup very delicious very interesting indeed and very addictive even though I have said that my addictions are usually reading and writing. This is one of my chemical addictions is caffeine is that it doesn't make you do stupid stuff like drugs or alcohol or anything for that matter!  As we drove on, we ended up seeing that things were getting interesting that we talked a bit. We get a lot of interest conversations that we're keeping my mind off All the shit that was going on, but the one thing I did was So mentioned look at I ended up looking at the pawn. It looked like a nice pond, but I was not interested in the pond to be honest with you. I was more interested in trees as I like to draw trees and stuff and then I ended up finding out at the top of the tree line this...... I saw Looks like two sirens air sirens side-by-side I thought maybe that's a little weird and then it didn't do anything but then I saw what looked like human shoulders. I was wondering what the hell was going on at the time and I was wondering, maybe I should've brought my fucking iPad and phone or Any of them because in this case, I need proof for this shit! I was starting to go through the motions actually what the hell did I actually see the fact that I saw siren head was he even real? I didn't know what the hell to think to tell you the truth, but it did happen. I took a double and there was again it was real. It was just beside my old town of Elmont, where are used to live as a child I didn't know that siren head would be there, but siren head is infamous for being around rural areas and not around little towns or anywhere there's people unless he's hungry! I was very interested in seeing where the siren head was going to go, but it didn't do anything in the daytime. It does not do anything but stay still at night time. That's when it's meal time starts supposedly saying on YouTube.

i'm gonna tell you this the idea that the siren had was a real thing, not a figment of an imagination but something that most people with PTSD will believe in because well it exists it started in World War I soldiers would complain not just about the shock effects but also seeing this creature that had a human body and two sirens as it had it was pretty gory kind of so I would not suggest seeing it for your own eyes that being sad I was very spooky that I saw that usually he only comes out. This is what this is what I was told is he only comes out during war time and pandemics at the time there is a war in Afghanistan and there was a COVID-19 At least were being pulled out of Afghanistan, so therefore it was still a war at that time!

as mentioned, maybe this was a little bit of a break in reality or maybe this was something that had to do with my stress I didn't know, but for some odd reason what the fuck was siren head doing in the middle of a forest where people are bound and drive in the daytime to disturb him I didn't think very much of this That it was kind of disturbing to tell you the truth, but it was siren head, and the war myth was real!  And that it wasn't some kind of artist who created this this was created by PTSD for people who have PTSD I think!