I feel disgusted by myself

I've always been chubby, i had a time in my life when i was super fit, nice muscles, "almost" no fat. But that changed when the depression came BACK around 2/3 years ago, ive been depressed since 11. But never took meds, now i do take fluoxetine. Going back to the subject, the depression came back by several reasons and its been getting worse everyday. Im 181cm (6ft) and i was 80 kg before with good muscle and lean mass basically, now im 115. Everytime i look in the mirror i feel disgusted and almost cry everytime, but i cant stop binge eating because of my compulsivness. Thats all im sorry for the vent guys, love yall