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WARNING : MENTION OF SUICIDE AND SELF-HARM, PLEASE LEAVE IF YOUR TRIGGERED BY THOSE! 

Hello everyone! I will be doing life updates every few months (or monthly if i have time :3).

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So, at the start of the year my mental health got worse, even in the first of January my Mom screamed at me because i don't know how to take a photo on her iphone (i NEVER have had a iphone before).
Since 2022/2021 i've been suicidal, as of lately i've calmed down again with my thoughts, but on January to February i was thinking of self-harming but thank GOD i didn't. For so long i've been afraid of doing anything close to deathly, yet i still want to die in someway, my brain is wasted from school i can't get better if i even want.
My grades have been worse because i don't study, I KNOW I NEED TO BUT I JUST CAN'T, my brain forgets everything i've learned i can ONLY remember stuff if i've done it a shit ton of times.
For the future? idk what ima do honestly, next month i'm going to be 14 (yes im that young don't comment about it) and my future doesn't seem bright because of my autism, i can't do alot of stuff alone because of it.
I still act childish but, so do my classmates, one of them (i'll call her F) is always making fun of the way i say "yes" and "no" because she say's i say them like "yesh" and "noe", it makes me mad and my friend doesn't help, she tells me she's just "joking" but girl... SHE'S MAKING FUN OF ME?! Btw i LOVE (platonicly) my friend, she's my bestfriend (and honestly? my only friend) so please don't come after her.
Welp that's it for now, see you next month! :3