Lenny's thoughts: The beginning

Let me start this series simple.

Let yourself understand that you actually don't want to die, instead you yearn for a better life, you want a different life than the one you have now. You want to get better. But long time ago you lost hope that things can change, you don't think it's possible anymore. And I understand it well, trust me. But the world goes on, and life is a constant change. It's a butterfly effect. Go slow, but move on. You will remember how to be alive, you can be fixed and you can be saved. And, assuming that this is not being read by a child now, you may discover that your adult life is much more enjoyable than the one you lived as a kid. But I'll elaborate on this on another occasion.

Most of you will probably consider my words to be dumb and ignorant now, or you may think “Oh it's so easy for you to say! You don't know the real pain!”. I don't care, it's okay, you are allowed to think whatever you feel like thinking now, you are so used to your state of mind that it's terrifying to imagine something different, it's scary to try and believe in something else.

See ya next time ~♥