another random rant !

I'm not even going to sugarcoat or sweeten anything. School is mentally draining me more than anything I've gone through before. Elementary, middle, high school. Every single year, every month, every week, everyday, every hour, every minute.. every second, every millisecond. I dread school. It's not the education I've grown to despise, but rather the people, the methods used to teach.

The kid's at my school.. they remind me of lifeless corpses, strung by string and lead off by their puppet master. They all act the same, they bully and belittle the one's who leak just a single drip of unusual or difference. It's annoying, My hair is a short wolf cut and I don't plaster my face in trendy makeup styles. I prefer being gothic and such. My music taste has been criticizes, my style, my voice, I've been called ugly for simply having a round face or simply NOT being the ideal feminine girly every other girl is. 

These beauty standards drive me mad. Why has it altered to be such unrealistic ways? The Big boody, to breasts, to big plump lips, glass soft skin that not everyone is fortunate to inherits. Small waistline, no dips within your hips. Long straight hair, small nose. Even eye shapes can be classed as "unattractive" in this modern day. ED's, depression, body dysmorphia is peaking within this generation, especially within women. I wish we could all accept bodies for how they are, I fell prey to an eating disorder, anorexia, being I starved myself and worked my body to it's max.. it did no wonders for me. I did it for myself I often thought, truly I denied I did this just to "fit in" as a feminine, ideal, and perhaps even perfect woman. 

I wish people could also understand not everyone chooses to be overweight. 

I wish we could all love ourselves.