A stranger in my old kingdom (11.10.2024)

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A day with my friends

I went out with two of my friends yesterday, for the first time. We went to a mall, it was pretty mid. i had arrived late as i changed out of my clothes due to last minute regrets.

I have two close friends, Medha and Caroline. I love both of them (platonically) but then i often feel left out. It was me and Medha in the beginning and then Caroline became friends with us. Things have always been messy in our friend group which consists of probably 10 people. Caroline and Medha are closer now, closer than i ever have been my with Medha. i thought it was me and her until the end, until we parted ways. i cant help but feel betrayed. But then again expectations for a person are always stripped when you see them in a new light. i often feel like I've been in a cave my whole life, oblivious to the world outside, oblivious on how to socialize. We went to burger king that day, I had the cheapest burger there while they got their meals along with a drink. I didn't want to spend too much but i would be lying if i said i wasn't jealous of  the soda they had both ordered. now, I've never been a fan for carbonated drinks I've always hated the way they would taste on your tongue but then i took a sip of Caroline's cola. i have no idea why. we went to this snow place after, they said they weren't going unless i would fall, and i did. plenty of times. i don't know if i did on purpose or i just simply lost my balance on the ice. I've always been rather clumsy,  unaware of what I'm setting foot on. which leaves me vulnerable for all of their silly attempts to trip me. I enjoyed myself at the snow area. i was freezing my ass off, literally as one of them put now into my pants. my phone dropped into the snow plenty of times so  it was so it was soaking wet. thankfully it was still operating, i don't know what i would do without my phone. they bought matching stationary before i came. ill admit it was cute but then i felt so left out.