to try or not to try, the question

i’m wondering

if i should even try,

if the message

is even worth it,

if i should do it,

i’m not sure,

maybe i should

let it be.

i’m consumed by apathy,

it’s really a tragedy,

i just wanted to be friends,

but maybe it wasn’t meant to be…

and she hurt me,

very deeply,

and i’m in denial,

and unable to move on.

rather than anger,

i chose being numb,

dissociation,

and depression.