WHERE IS HE? damn it I'm tired

Bro I'm so tired of seeing cute couples that genuinely love each other and I hate that I'm jealous and the fact that I'm always on the verge of tears when seeing them. When will I get my turn? Is it really worth the wait. And ISTG I will shoot myself if someone says that "oh dw it'll happen when you least expect it" like honestly shut up that's so not true. On top of that I'm always trying to protect my dignity as well because I know that I won't just date anyone at this age or soon because I'm too loyal to my parents when it comes to them trusting me in the whole dating thing. But sometimes I really wish I had someone who loves me in a non platonic sense and has their breath taken away whenever they see me. Whoever you are that I'll be with in the future, I haven't even met you and I already miss you. I didn't think it was possible to miss someone you've never even had a glimpse of but I can't help it anymore.