Headaches TL;DR: my brain is CHAOS

Does anyone else wanna squeeze their head when they get a headache or do/say something stupid. Like, I know that probably sounds weird but like, whenever I get a headache or act dumb I just wanna push my hands on the sides of my head until it explodes and cracks like when you push an Oreo together and the white stuff squeezes out from the sides. I know that it’s probably just me who feels this way but idk. Also, for some reason it feels like my body is filled with scrambled chaos; like how the abstractions look like in TADC. Sometimes it feels like that chaos is about to overflow and crack out from my skull like Athena from Zeus’ head. Since my mind always feels like obscure ramblings that never stop, it’s like 27 different things in my head such as screaming or loud songs, sometimes cheering and clapping. But the medicine that I take (adderall) doesn’t really ever stop the noise, that is why I feel like I’m always about to explode and I want to crack it open. I don’t know why I mad this so long, being my second post after saying I just joined. I know no one actually read this whole thing but idk it’s just what I was thinking in the moment. I just realized I’ve been writing this for like 30 minutes. See ya.