ik this is weird but i hate my mother

idk if anyone can relate but i hate my mom so much she has always been so judgmental of me to a place where i was insecure about anything she points out. i no longer care about those stuff but it just makes me so mad when she just has to find a reason to bully me and makes it look like people in real life haate u for that. first when i started getting into darker/emo-ish style she was number 1 hater. why did my hair looked like that, why all those weird clothes, do i hang out  with diffrent people to be like that NO MOM I AM JUST WHO I WANNA BE and then i started smoking and ignoring her bc i have just HAD ENOUGH i mean yeah my hair is like that BC I WANT TO ITS SUPPOSED TO BE UNNATURAL I DONT WANNA LOOK LIKE EVREY SECOND PERSON ON THE STREETS, now she is mad bc my nail polish have chiped and looks crusty to her ig but like ok i will fix it stop nagging. every time i tell her i dont mind smth or that NOBODY AROUND ME CARES ABOUT HER MADE UP INSECURITIES ABOUT ME SHE ALWAYS JUST SAYS "well i care about that"GIRL U AINT ME LET ME LIVE MY LIFE HOW I WANT TO. i dont know how much longer i can keep with her nagging and snarky comments like ok if u wanna be better than me BE IT IDC AT ALL. and when i stop comunicating with her she is like oh but i love u so much and all that shi LIKE NO I STILL HATE U.

idk how to deal wioth her anymore, any advice?