i fuckinf hate ghis place

if i hav 2 hear another word about "autistic girls being tricked" into transgenderism or understanding climate change or whatever rha fuck as if autistic girls/"girls" hav no agency or brainz im gonna kill myself just so theyll get their fuckinf handz off me . who let any of theze ppl work at a sped skool . i wanna go home im tired of all of this but there isnt even much better !!!!!

as antipsych az i am and forever will b therez a specific kinda pain in knowing i waz never allowed 2 hav friendz in second grade cauze i waz too violent, socially inept, weird, delusional, all around a freak, yet never got a diagnosis of any kind . i dont even recall if rhey ever told my parentz . cauze you know, girlz cant have autizm--until they wanna make their own decisionz, until they dont wanna be girlz anymore . im so fucking tired .