Feeling better + 21st BDAY!!!

Hi strangers of spacehey!! I’ve never made a blog post before, but I just wanted somewhere to talk about how crazy this year has already been for me 3 months in.

I yap A LOT in this post, so if you have a short attention span like me feel free to skip to the last paragraph for a general TLDR <3

January always feels like a crawl, but this year especially that month could not have been over quick enough. Between stress with my family, stress with the media (self explanatory if you’re American), and lots of arguments between my boyfriend and I, I was truly just over it and ready to sleep this year away. And little did I know, that was only the icing on the cake of just how much stress I’d be feeling.

Nearly the entirety of February I was really going through it with the flu for the first time in my life. It took forever to even get out of bed for more than the bathroom, and when I was finally getting some strength back I learned the hard way that you can crack a rib from coughing too hard :-( Whatever Influenza A has evolved into this year, it is NOT for the weak. But about 2 weeks after the initial infection, my mom pushed me to leave the house with her to get some fresh air and some physical exercise and I have to say it made a big difference in my recovery (despite the constant throbbing pain from my rib).

I had to reschedule a lot of appointments because of how long I was sick for. Of course, they all now fall in arguably the busiest month of the year for me: my birthday month. My birthday isn’t until the end of the month (the 25th) but as soon as March begins I have to start planning *immediately* if I want things to happen on time, especially because my mom works in healthcare and has very limited days off. This year has an added challenge because of all the things that were supposed to be over and done with in February that I now need to find time for. So far I have down the following: the worst cavity fill experience of my LIFE that I got done on Monday, my final day of testing with my psychiatrist, my salon appointment, dinner with my grandparents, and dinner with my mom. Excluding a few other birthday specific preparations like picking up my cake but those are more of “when you have a moment” things. Between the excitement and the constant worry that everything goes according to plan, I’m feeling very dysfunctional and struggling to do any other tasks unless they are pre-planned. Fingers crossed I remember every morning to take it one day at a time and maintain some optimism. 

On a more positive note, I’m almost 21!! The world opens up to me a lot more (at least in the US lol) and I get to go to all sorts of events. I cant say I’ll be doing a lot of alcohol related things lol but maybe I’ll give it a try. March and some of April are more often than not very fun filled times for me. Significantly more eventful than my usual routine and I get to pick the activities. I get to spend time in the presence of my family who love me very much and feel like the center of attention for a little bit. The best way I can put it is I look forward to my birthday in the same way kids look forward to Christmas, and I’m especially excited this year. It makes it all the more enjoyable that following my birthday is my favorite time of the seasons (once all the rain clears of course lol). The weather finally gets warmer and overall just uplifts my mood, and I get to wear my cute outfits again too!

TLDR; January had lots of doom and gloom, February gave me the flu and put me out of commission from the 8th onwards (and gave the parting gift of a cracked rib), and now I’m scrambling to fit in everything I missed into this month along with my birthday planning. I’m nervous, I’m excited, I’m impatient, I want to pull my hair out, but overall I’m really anticipating my birthday this year. Getting older sucks and I’m definitely feeling it now lol, but all the weight of adulthood aside I’m just really excited to be 21. I know the end of the month is kinda far from this point in time, so as things progress if anyone’s interested in more of my planning (my cake decor, my outfit, my birthday activities) I’d love to give updates! <3 Thanks for reading, stranger :-)