Wow, I suck at keeping up on these

Yeah I haven't been on here in a MINUTE. Ig it doesn't matter too much cause the only people who probably see these are my irl friends (kirby, ginger, luv ya) but eh. I suppose this is an update? Well I finished my worthless list of 1000 random a$$ websites....hmm...schools almost over....yeah. I'm not sure how I feel right now. I'm here but I'm not really here. In that same sense I'm alive but I'm not really alive. I don't know if that makes ANY sense at all but oh well. Yeah idk I just can't tell how or what (if anything, idk) I feel or how I've been feeling. Thats become the normal so much as of late that now it feels like I can't even tell if I am feeling something, like if you bumped into me mid-day and asked how I was feeling...well tbh I would probably just say "fine" and revert the conversation to you...but anyway I can't tell if I'm "okay" or if I'm feeling anything at all. I hate it.