PLEASE HELP ME I NEED ADVICE

Okay to anyone who is reading this (which is probably no one) most of this is gonna be about my love life and developments that have occurred the past few months because shit went DOWN. buckle in fellers!

It first started around two months ago, a week before my school's winter formal. One of my distant friends (who I thought was gay) asked (completely out of the blue btw) if I would go to the dance with him. I agreed, assuming it was something casual and friendly. What I didn't realize was that he was really into me, and that by going on a date with him, I was giving him false hope and making him believe that I had romantic feelings for him. 

The main reason that I wasn't feeling it was because I had/have feelings for a girl. Let's call her "June". I was hesitant about telling June because we were really close friends and I didn't want to make her feel uncomfortable, but I LITERALLY COULD NOT HOLD BACK. So a few days after the winter formal, I confessed to her. I told her that I was totally open to just being friends, but I needed to get it off my chest. She told me that she didn't feel the same way.

So I went on another date with previous boy.

When I tell you it was awkward, I mean it was FUCKING AWKWARD. I could tell that he wanted to kiss me, but I was so wrapped up in the sadness of being rejected by June that I just ignored him. 

I rejected him the next day.

A day later, (yes, this all happened in the span of like two fucking weeks) June messaged me and told me that she did like me, but didn't say it initially because she was worried about dating within a friend group. RED FLAG I know. I was so ecstatic. I didn't care about how weird the circumstances were. She was all I wanted. 

AND BUCKLE UP FELLAS BECAUSE THATS NOT EVEN THE HALF OF IT. An hour later, YES AN HOUR, June's best friend, let's call her "Iris" confessed that she had liked me for the past year and a half. She told me that June already knew. I of course, rejected her.

What made this so awkward was that the two of them are best friends, and therefore, June didn't want to date me because she was worried about hurting Iris' feelings. So for the next few weeks after this whole thing happened, June and I just lived with the fact that we both had feelings for each other, but we didn't really acknowledge it. 

Long story short, we're "girlfriends" now, but she barely talks to me in group settings, doesn't message me first, never checks in on me, and it literally feels like we're barely even friends anymore. She swears that she likes me but how can I tell her that if were gonna be in a relationship I NEED reasurrance and at least some physical touch? that is THE bare minimum but I feel like asking for it is clingy. I've been more distant lately because she doesn't even interact with me if I don't interact with her first, though she doesn't seem to notice and/or care. WHAT DO I DO? I really like her but holy shit this is not going to work if things keep going like this.

update she broke up with me