04/03/2025

Lately, I’ve been feeling like I’m standing still while the rest of the world moves forward. It’s as if I’m stuck in one place, watching time pass but never really making progress. Everyone else seems to have a direction—chasing dreams, setting goals, moving towards something—but I feel like I’m just existing, without the motivation to push myself forward.

I don’t know where I’m going, and that uncertainty is exhausting. It’s not that I don’t want to move forward—I do. I want to find that spark, that drive that makes me excited to wake up and chase something. But right now, everything feels like a cycle: wake up, go through the motions, sleep, repeat. No clear purpose, no real change.

It’s frustrating because I know I should be doing something. I should be figuring things out, working towards a goal, or at least trying to find one. But every time I try to think about the future, it just feels… blank. And that’s terrifying.

Maybe it’s burnout. Maybe it’s fear. Maybe it’s just one of those phases where life feels meaningless for a while before clarity eventually finds its way back to me. I don’t know. But I do know that I don’t want to stay like this forever. I want to break out of this feeling, to find something that excites me again. I just don’t know how.

For now, I guess all I can do is take it one day at a time and hope that somewhere along the way, I’ll figure out where I’m meant to go.