My Coming Out Story 🌈

Coming out story,

As a child I was always a huge tomboy. You could find me in baggy boys clothes, xl t-shirts, basketball shorts. I liked boy things over girly things.. if you put me in a dress as a kid, there would be a fight. I never really felt comfortable in girls clothes and never really liked girly things. Puberty was hard for me, I suffered body dysmorphia up until 12th grade when forced to conform & dress "like a female" bc boy's don't like girls who dress like boys. I remember wishing I was a boy for so long. Given, I never knew what "Gay" or "trans" meant. Until about 8th grade year, you didn't hear a lot in a small country town about gays or trans even. But was mocked & bullied (for dressing like a boy) into depression because I didn't fit into everyone else's box of what was normal and what wasn't. Raped at the young age of 9. Then at the age of 14 I 'thought' I was bisexual for many years or so. I had a few girlfriends here & there, nothing serious. Spent the last idk 12 years living in complete zombie mode, in and out of toxic relationships.. FORCED TO HAVE SEX OR BE SINGLE --- Asexual at this time, no sexual desire. Not until after numberous failed relatrionships with men. (giving birth to 5 beautiful babies.) No clue what I am, where I'm going in life. My father, God rest his soul would've never accepted me, I come from a southern Baptist small town in Florida. Tonight I broke down in tears, finally feeling at peace, here's my full outing, take it how you want. I'm a genderfluid queer female. My pronouns are she/they. Love me or don't, I refuse to hide in silence #LGBTQ #lesbian #transgender #stem #tomboy #comingout #pride #queer