03/03/25

later walk. i tried to look for a hidden park my old friends took me to at 2 am one time but it seems to disappear every time i try to find it, i guess everything looks different in the dark. i miss those days. i hope i can spend an entire all nighter outside one day. 

the way my shadow moves is very pretty, but i can tell i look stupid if i stare at it too long. i try to stay away from crowded areas, but there were so many people, even as i got further from the centre. i wish they'd go away. i wish to experience what it's like to exist alone in this world one day.

i saw a random weirdly placed bench and wondered what it was doing there, before realising i'm no different, so i took a picture of it. that reminds me of mercy by rudy francisco, my favourite poem.