Relationships kinda suck

I thought everything I wanted was there finally, no more pleading, I could put my all into someone but I was stupid, I had just met them. I don't know what I was thinking I was excited so happy to be alive I thought he understood me so I put my all all I wanted was to be with him now how tf can I feel this way when I just met him I thought I finally found the purest connection I got ahead of myself I failed to even ask if they liked me to but I swear I did at the same time I swear he said he liked me