oh messy life

my identity has been the most stable its ever been for the past 3yrs, yet sometimes i still get a ache in the center of my chest wanting me 2 find it again, sometimez i wna uproot everything and start over bcuz that's how i grew up, the long-term of anything has alwayz made me anxious. 

sometimez it just takes a l8 night 2 find myself again, listening 2 music, dressing up, looking 4 it on the internet, re-doing my pages, impulsive appearance changes, writing, etc.

every1 else looks so put 2gether 2 me, even if it's just from my perspective, but i see other ppl's pages and styles and i wonder how it feels 2 ever be sure of urself

my photoz have been off 2 me lately, i keep deleting them

i know i'll come back around

-xoxo, kitti