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2021 - Wheeeew...there is so much going on this year. I don't know if I can keep up. My husband who was diagnosed with Esophageal Cancer in November and has went through Chemo and Radiation and will soon go through surgery to remove the cancer and his whole esophagus March 1. Yes it's going to be a tough scary surgery.
I was also given the chance to go through a MIT program at work this Febuary, which is great but also comes with more responsibilities and more important things to remember on your list and NOT forget (which some things I have already forgotten on how to do).
My daugher is getting married in April.
My son is graduating high school in May and my youngest is also graduating from 5th grade and will enter Middle School in the Fall. Will we be able to go on a family vacation? No because cancer has taken way vacation days with my husbands job. UGGH. My kids say it's fine. But it's not fine. I had things planned out. I had hopes of going to the beach, watching my boys jump in the ocean while I had my cute sunhat on and a cute drink in my right hand and my husband's hand in my left.
My anxiety is at it's highest peak to say the least. So many ups and downs. So many things planned that now has to be scratched out. So many new plans to plan for. So many projects on the list that has to be completed. Not to mention vehicles needing worked on, projects around the house that needs repairing.
You try to help your brain and emotions out by putting them in order as a way to help yourself manage, then you realize - lol - that it is not realistic at all.
My plans, hopes, goals, are just maybe's waiting to be processed and completed. Make your plans, set your goals, list all your hopes, and then watch something like cancer throw a kink in the whole process that you now and will always have to tip-toe around.
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