I decided that I'm going to leave my friendgroup

For a while I've only been a part of it because every time I hint that there are problems, people tell me to stop because it will 'tear the friendgroup apart'. It may sound petty but I hope that it does and I want to be the one to bring that on. It is horrible to be a part of and everyone agrees but we're not allowed to properly talk about it, we're only allowed to gossip about it behind everyone else's backs. (I'm guilty of this too, but I wish I was friends with people who made it so that I don't need to do this)

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa I just wish it was easier to leave; I've been trying to for years and still haven't managed. I wrote a resignation letter, but I think I'm going to have to delete that because I need to talk to them all in person, as awful as I know that will be.

Another thing that makes it difficult is that a) my family doesn't realise they're rubbish people and b) I have nowhere else to go, so I'd have to sit on my own for ages, which I could tolerate, I just don't know where I'd sit :(

ANYWAYS yeah I am dreading that. It better go well, although I suppose I can just ignore the consequences if it doesn't :P