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Lately I started journaling what I’m feeling each day. Here’s my entry for today (March 1)

The fuck was his name? I don’t know. Fucking weird ass guy. Don’t know how to feel about him touching her, or trying to touch her. Probably gonna be angry if I see it happen for myself. Can’t do anything at the moment but when I go there and see him with her, I’m probably gonna give him 3 strikes. First strike I’m getting in between them. Second strike I’m telling him to back off. Third strike, I don’t know. Probably gonna shove him away. Or punch him if he starts agitating

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Also good to know she still loves me. I just wish I could actually be confident about myself and stop putting myself down. I know I can help it but I don’t know where to start

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I don’t know if she knows how hard it is to not text her for a long time in one day. Half the time no one’s online to play with, my friends don’t respond, and my uncle’s not home. I need someone to talk to, I can’t wait 6 or 8 sometimes 10 hours waiting for a response

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I still remember the one time I told her about my friend group and she said she just hopes there’s no female friends in there. She has male friends that I don’t like her having but she doesn’t listen to me about them, why should I listen to her about my female friends who are old enough to be my mom, already married, and have kids?

Maybe that’s a little harsh to her. I don’t know

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Something random, I found something like swimming in an old bottle of purified water. No wonder my stomach would hurt every time I drank it. Probably nothing life threatening at least if I’m still alive

The song I’m feeling today [Theory of a Deadman - Livin’ My Life Like a Country Song ft. Cory Marks]