22:59

bro im so lonely its eating me up

i feel like a fucking corpse in a pool of maggots, yk?

blehhhhhh

i just- i dunno- its kind of jarring how unimportant life can make ya feel sometimes- like, i post to my youtube, i get about 10 views, same with instagram, these are things ive worked for hours, days, weeks on, and yeah. it kinda sucks. i mean- i create art for the art of creation- make youtube videos cos its fucking fun- but idk. im lonely.

irl ive got no friends either, ive got like, acquaintances, i talk to them when they talk to me, but then i come home and im alone again. 0 messages, 0 calls, 0 people. :]

i keep mixing with the wrong people and it sucks- damn- fuck me for being 'too trusting'

anyways i sound like pete wentz on live journal. its not all bad.

im thinking about getting a syrian hamster called buckley

also fuck trump and jd vance- that came out of nowhere but jesus fucking christ someones gotta castrate those cunts and id rather not be the one to do it- i wouldnt wanna see...that. yikes.

things will change when i get into college

hopefully.

anyways- i dunno. i didnt take my meds the other day and its kinda set my system off, like- i dunno, i feel like im back to square one.

anywayz back to the good stuff.

i picked up guitar again, i struggled with motivation for a while, but i picked that thang up and ive been noodlin around with it again :D always fun.

need another tat desperately.

'tis all.

-mjrtom