L0V3

It's horrible when you're in love with someone and that someone simply doesn't love you or isn't interested in you, and worse when he's older and I know he'll never be with me, I've been alone all my life, I've never had a genuine boyfriend, I've given a lot of love, too much to be honest, and the fact that I can't receive what I gave is very frustrating, I've heard everything "you don't need a boyfriend", "you're too young for all this", "it will arrive when you least expect it" or the worst of all "you're not missing anything", but it's all absurd, it always comes from people who have received love even from hell, and I know that love will never come, why? it's obvious, I'm disgusting, my personality doesn't help much less my tastes or the way of seeing life, my metaphors are very intense, my goals and dreams are so... weird, seriously at this point I think I'll always be alone, alone until death. =(