We wont stand for hazy eyes anymore

i cant believe winter is nearly over. i remember last winter felt so long and i was rolling around in my self pity, felt like dying everyday. back then i wasn't doing good. i haven't felt that bad since 12 months ago yet i still have marks on my body that remind me of back then.

But anyways, its 2025. not early 2024 anymore. the sun is out and when im at school, i stand outside next to the lockers. i usually wear like 7 layers to school because its freezing and i have to stand outside in the cold for so long. now im cutting down on how many layers i wear. and when i stand outside for the whole of lunch, my legs get warm.

i hate winter and glad its over. but i feel like time is passing too quickly and summer is coming and then when  i blink, it will be winter again.

Listening to taking back Sunday and it really reminds me of last summer when i would go on side quests with my friends. walk through rivers in forests and just run through fields. last summer was a good time. it was fun. Was able to wear short sleeves when i went out with my friends but i hated if they posted pictures of me without my arms covered.

Im exited for summer. i want to be able to have fun again and go skatboarding every week again and wear cuter outfits again (and not have to put on five extra layers under my clothes)

anyway, im rambling now. i guess i just like that the sun is out.

— mika