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She keeps flaunting their relationship in front of me, like she knows I haven’t fully moved on. Maybe I haven’t, not completely—but I’m close enough to not caring that it’s just… annoying now.
And yet, I can’t help but wonder—why?
Why is she trying so hard to get a reaction out of me?
Why does it matter to her that I see their happiness?
Does she think I’ll be jealous? That I’ll break all over again?
Does she want to prove that she got the more mature version of him?
That she's the one who swooped in as his so-called savior after the wreckage of what we were?
That she’s better for him? That he’s happier with her?
Well, I already know the answers to those last two.
She is better for him.
And he is happier with her.
And that makes me happy, too.
I loved him once—I wanted him to be happy, even if it couldn’t be with me. And now he is. So why would I complain?
She got the version of him I once prayed for. The one I begged the universe to give me. The version that listens, that understands, that loves the right way.
And you know what? I’m not salty about that.
I’m happy to be the one who taught him a lesson—even if it wasn’t for me. Even if I had to be the trial run, the one who endured his mistakes so he could learn from them.
Because at least now, I know he won’t treat her the way he treated us.
And if that’s the only thing I ever got out of loving him, then I think I can live with that.
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Sielimerence
I feel like when your ex is trying to "prove" really hard that he moved from you, it's that he want to he tries to convince himself that he has moved on from your relationship BUT that he has not done so entirely (only in my opinion!). Wishing yiu the best tho, ik recovering for a breakup might be difficult!