Weekend Anxiety Cycle - Blog #6

This blog touches on anxiety and family struggles. This one is pretty depressing but I'd like to vent out. If you're not in the right headspace, feel free to skip it! Just know you're not alone, and I'm sending you love💛

Weekends haven't necessarily been that fun or exciting the last few years. It's been constant stress, panic attacks and arguing. I feel trapped and alone for someone my age.

My mom is narcissistic and my dad isn’t the best either. It gets even worse when they start drinking. I get so nervous, so anxious, and I can never tell anyone about it. I don’t want to talk about them directly, but I just wish I had some company when this happens. I have my brother but he has enough on his plate and I don't want to bother him at all.

I know I’m an adult (I turned 21 last May), but I don’t feel like I have a life of my own. It feels like I’m stuck in this endless cycle. I'm always on the verge of tears and just a bundle of nerves. I still try my best to heal, even with the environment.

I don't have many opportunities at the moment and I feel utterly hopeless. Home is where the heart is but I don't feel like I'm found mine yet.

Anyways, the was just me letting it all out and I truly feel for anyone going through this kind of situation as well. But take care of yourself, alright? Do the best you can.

I'm fine, by the way! Just a bit sadder than usual but it'll pass. Bye bye 🐢👋