My mom will publically execute me

Okay so like cutie maybe might be gotten mad or like disappointed in me or something cuz like I said he would probably come over next week but I got too scared to ask my mom about it so I said like probably not now and he seemed like super disappointed LIKE I REALLY DO WANT HIM TO COME OVER DON'T GET ME WRONG I'm just absolutely TERRIFIED to ask my mom like shaking throwing up sobbing on the floor terrified AND IDK WHY!!!! I'm just really scared of her response

BUT DUDE I FEEL LIKE HE FULL ONE HATES ME AND NEVER WANTS TO TALK TO ME AGAIN :[[[ (he doesn't he's acting the same way and he literally STARTS convos) im just so scared he's gonna end up hating me because I'm like annoying or like not the person he originally thought I was  (´•̥﹏•̥`) I think I need to tell my therapist about this cuz I know that this isn't rational AT ALL But like I genuinely believe he hates me even I KNOW HE DOESN'T!!!