Bee's second blog entry! i still dont know what to name these!!!!!

                                                      hey bee blog buddies!

Im back with another diray blog thingy- i dont really know how to write a blog so this is jus gunna be a bundle of random thoughts and stuff i did and stuff! and speaking of stuff i did!

today i got somthing amazing!!! i managed to get a pre-order of the heather mason vest and shirt combo thingy konami have just put on the konami store! im so so so happy!!!

heather is my main gender goal character, basicaly jus who i want to look like and stuffs- and shes also a huge comfort character for me (ironic i know given how little comfort she got in the game she was in lolz).

i actualy have quite a bit of sillent hill 3 spesific merchandice too! i have a first print copy of silent hill 3 from japan wich comes with a mini disc soundtrack sample that has songs that never made it to the game! like how cool is that!! aaaaaaa!! i also have a super cute heather plushie i orderd from japan! she keeps me company on my desk :D and uh,,, dont tell anyone but i talk to her quite a bit haha,,,i have a hard time trusting my freinds due to some truama and its nice to have somone (or somthing i guess,,,) who i can 100% trust and talk too when i need her.

other than getting a pre-order of the vest thingy (aaaa :D) i also watched  a few episodes of season 1 spongebob because shoe (one of my best freinds) has never seen spoungebob!! like how????? well actualy its because he didnt grow up with much pop culture and stuffs so it makes sense in context haha- but hes been enjoying watching them with me! its so nice to relax and watch ssome nice calm stuff like spongebob every now and then!


hey future bee here um,,i kinda ended up trama dumping and venting in this next part so read at ur own risk ig.

idk if it was my hyperfixation on frutiger aero that led to this but ive been chacing the feeling of calm and happyness i used to have when i was younger,,,idk if this is what people call age regressing but i want to do some more reseach,,, and i dont really know if chasing my happy times as a kid is good for me at the moment,,, i didnt get to sleep till aroung 5am last night partly because i was working on my spacehey profile but mostly because i had some bad ptsd episodes ;-; but i survived and managed to get up and not stay in bed! so thats somthing!

                                        ok venting and trama dumping over!


i also played though some of the spongebob movie game for the ps2 on my steam deck and oh my gosh its so fun!!!! i have a pink ps2 slim i use on my crt but i lost some of my ps2 games when i moved out of my dads house to my moms house when i was in high school ;-; so i play the ones i cant get my hands on (for now hehehe >:3) on my steam deck using completly legal ways,,,but um yeah its super fun! i didnt expect it to be this good really haha and i sware in not on a spongebob hyperfixation but i did just buy bikinibottom rehydrated on steam and spongebob cosmic shake which ive never heard of but it seems cool! ill be playing them next week when i get the train to collage and stuffs!

speaking of collage, i start back on monday (i only have 2 and a half day weeks so its not too bad). so i might be too burnt out to write daily blog entrys but ill try to keep going!! i really enjoy writing these even though this is currently my second entry and its like tripple the length of the first eubjggerhgew.

anyways thats about all that i wanted to talk to you guys about today! i know this was a super long entry and hey maybe there will be more long entrys or this will be a super rare thingy but that we will have to see :3 oh! i also was thinging that i might start a new segment on the blog/diray thing i have here where i get plushie heather to write some stuffs, and if i ever get comments she coudl respond to them and stuff! ill have a think of some cute names for the segment and what she would talk about tonight0 :D 

i hope all of you have amazing dreams in cozy hive beds! (get it because my name is bee like the bug and stuff hehe xp)

and if you made it this far (or if you didnt i guess haha) i hope you have an amazing day/night!!!