glad it's not leap year

Glad it's not a leap year because this month has been dragging its ass!! So far, 2025 is not all that spectacular but the night is young, right?

I just FEEL old sometimes!

I will readily admit that boredom has crept in my life. Seasonal depression is still here but is always slowly fading away. But I set myself up for more gigs, thinking I would get emails and phone calls. Nope. I miss performing but don't want to/can't do a million shows like most bands. I'm simply not built like that anymore. 

Somehow, I did seven shows between October and November last year. Granted, to some that's a drop in the bucket. For me, it had been a VERY long time since I did anything like that. Not since I was gigging a lot between 2014-2019 with my own music, as well as playing in a cover band and filling in with a punk band (which was fun actually). If I could do two shows per month, great. 

I enjoy being on stage, making noise and some money. But I have to be honest with myself and all of you: I was never someone that people wanted to see or hear. I even struggled back in high school, getting people to see me perform. Some things never changed. 

And while I mentioned my music earlier, I have no desire to perform the stuff anymore. I want to do one more album and then fold up my tent. I know when to walk away, and not become a caricature or a shell of myself. 

Other locals are good at that.