I hate being a man(not in a trans way in a femboy way)

Soo I just saw some white lines on my upper lip and side checks I'm a femboy and I don't want any facial hair I fucking hate it ruins the femboy appearance and causes balding when getting order why couldn't life be with me once idk if they're facial hair someone just shave it for me so my dad doesn't know idk how he will take it anyways I need urgent suggestion so pls comment