IBDPAIN ♡ྀི ₊

I'm getting COOKED so hard by the IBDP it's actually impossible my overall IB score is so much lower than I want it to be and I only have 1 test left for all my subjects (?) before my end of years and after end of years my predicted is going to be basically finalized and I'm terrified cause my grades are still to some degree below what I need for all the universities I want to go to...

And I really don't know what to do cause I genuinely feel like it's over and realistically I know there's ~ 1 left but I don't know if I can fix my predicted by that 1 test and end of years! It's genuinely scaring me so bad... 

And I'm really disappointed in myself this term especially. I'm studying really hard but doing worse than I know I can and have and it's so frustrating because for some subjects I genuinely am so close to the grade boundary to the point where it just feels like a joke because I don't know what to do get above it and even if i do, I don't know if my teacher will predict me my improved grade!!! I really feel like I'm letting myself down this term. 

Just needed to get that out there and rant about it somewhere cause I really don't know what to do except keep trying but I'm so tired of trying my hardest only to fall just a little bit short that accumulates to me falling very short overall ... 

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