Thoughts Over Time: Overheating Mind

          There's too much going on and I feel (not just feel because I know I am) like I am getting left behind. Even so, I don't feel like catching up. I'm getting more and more miserable, and I can't help it. I can't help myself.

          The school year is coming to an end but in not just as simple as that. This year is my last year in high school and college life is just around the corner. I only have to endure this last month, but I don't know why I still feel like surrendering. We are just 2 weeks into 4th quarter, yet I was already absent on the half of it. Tons of task, list of deadlines are ahead, and I still don't know where to start. I don't have the energy, the passion, the motivation that a normal person would have. I feel like a plant getting drowned due to over watering. I feel like being buried alive, the dirt and soil trapping and suffocating me. I feel like a firefly getting succumb to the fire. I feel like a kite that is getting blown to every corner of the world. 

          I don't want to move or do anything, but I'm still worried about my future. What if I don't get an honor, what if I don't get to a public or state university, what if I don't get a scholarship, where will I end up, what will I become? All these questions kept going round and round on my mind and I feel like going insane. I want to change I know I can change. And this blog is my first step. I'll take small steps toward change so I can become the person that my past, present, and future self-want.