shaking tha barz of my enclosure ,,,,,,,

none of u understand how badly i need (want) a computer it iz SO bad ,,,,,,, i dont hav tha general resourcez (money, tiem, tranzport) 2 either buy or build my own right neow and i am jus . strugglin . cannawt wait 2 get outta thiz hell !!!

i hav dreamz of having my own p standard desktop pc about it but even bigger and stupider dreamz of makin my own tiny litol cyberdeck abt it . ideally around 3dsxl size in termz of lengthz, n im nawt just saying that cauze i love tha 3ds it just fitz in my pocket real well . just hitting tha size where itz chunky but still eggstremely ez 2 lug around . i would b able 2 deal w thickness if necessary . unrealistic but i would looove 2 just shell out an old 3dsxl n uze it az a sorta base w itz dual screen setup n all, my only big gripe w that would b keyboard situation . i heavily prefer physical keyboardz so it would kinda suck without one . it wouldnt need 2 b a crazy powerful machine, but liek . if a phone can b thiz good at around tha same size az 3ds, wat would b stopping me from uzing it 2 browze tha web, work on my site, n watch sum yt in the background ??

speaking of, id luv 2 self host my webbed site instead of havin it on neocitiez . az much az neocitiez iz wonderful, id feel more secure hosting it mykelp, in a sense .

thiz iz sum dumb ranting i kno, but i really really hope i can get tha meanz 2 accomplish all thiz sum day :3