my failed neocities website

hiii first entry!!! 

Ok, soo... I've gotten really into the whole make a website and leave social media behind thing and I like it very much,I really do! but I HATE how I don't understand how people make such pretty and cool sites, yes I've seen videos explaining or whatever but it either, they r bad quality can't hear half what they're saying, or is just plain BORINGGGGGG, idc!!! i need videos that are engaging and make things simple. I have so many ideas and things I want to add to the site like: ocs page, shrines to my interest and etc. Its just so frustrating aaughh..