fat shamed (yay)

did i really get blatantly fat-shamed by my best friend and let it slide? yes. did i even join in on the talk? yes. do i feel slightly weird for doing so and hope she doesn't say something that genuinely hurts me? yes.

one thing she said was after i told her i drink water with Chia seeds and it was simple, i think it was then that she said "those are supposed to make you less hungry so you don't eat and lose weight, but i don't see it"

and then we talked about pilates (i do nikolas pilates at home), i actually just started this week, and she told me "all that work and i dont see the difference".

its hard to translate what she said from swedish to english, especially when i barely remember everything.

she said a lot more (straight up called me fat and "big back") but i don't write things i can't tell when it happened (bad english alert)

but i kinda see why she would start joking about it too cause ive been making fat jokes (about myself) since we met.

anyway, i dont know what to feel so i wanted to write, bye <3