i am in psychosis at the club

My brain is a retard chamber. I wish I could communicate like a normal person, I let everyone walk all over me and am constantly mute no matter who I am with. I wish I could just talk to people. My brain is so loud and full of things to say but I can never get them out of my mouth, I wish my mouth had as much to say as my brain. 

"I am constantly trying to communicate something incommunicable, to explain something inexplicable, to tell about something I only feel in my bones and which can only be experienced in these bones." - Franz Kafka