I feel so lonely

I fell of my buddy DESTRUCTOR NO.11 my skateboard. I never fell off my skateboard for like ten years now, i feel betrayed. If my skateboard can betray me like thIS who says people can't to. I wish i was better. I hate myself, i hate everything. WHY DESTRUCTOR WHYYYY.

I feel like im drifting away from reality, nothing feels real. Am i even real. Whats going on.

I keep listening to radiohead and not my blink-182.