stupid questions

what is it called when you feel comfortable being a boy, but if you had the opportunity you would change instantly? actually i don't know if i would change it or if i just want to be more androgynous, i would like to be unknown, mysterious...idk, i'm sure i'm not a transgender person and i like my masculinity features but it feels like i would be grateful if i could be reborn and shape myself the way i want.