all this thinking and still no clue :C

Five days ago I basically had to choose classes for the upcoming school year?? >.< I'm scared for Junior year because of what everyone online says, and I chose honor classes..I'm kinda cooked but whatever 

But like afterwards my counselor was like "so what is your plan for the future?? :)" AND I DONT KNOW??? Like I have goals but realistic plans like a job? College? I made something up on the spot to tell my counselor, and I said pharmacist or pharmacy tech, and then he started telling me to take the science classes and bla bla bla and something about pharmacy school? But WHAT DO YOU MEAN I HAVE TO HAVE IT ALL FIGURED OUT??? Why do I have to determine what to do for the rest of my life within the first 18 years of me existing? I mean I'm not that scared of growing up and getting a job and stuff, I'm just scared of choosing the wrong thing. And what if I'm not happy? And will I make enough money? Will AI replace a job I like? Will it have good benefits? 

But deadass I started looking up how to be a pharmacist tech and low-key I might wanna do it? Like there's a job growth for pharmacy techs, many job opportunities, job stability, a variety of work options, but there's a ton of learning :O I mean I like learning but cmon I don't wanna study forever? But I think I can change that perspective. "Life Long Learner" is something my school yaps about. ALSOOOOOO you can complete pharmacist tech certifications online? I did some research on Penn Foster and its self-pace and online. I honestly think that's for me! I've always wanted to do an online college program because I like staying at home to be honest. And going out because I want to. I just like the idea of studying at home at my own pace! And I can definitely pull this off while in the National Guard??  

So perchance I might go with that plan??? It seems safe. But if money didn't matter I would definitely pursue my dream of being an artist, or maybe a food blogger :P

I used to really wanna be an artist. I've always loved art, I'll post some later :D Freshman year my counselor took one look at my sketchbook and said I have potential, with my grades and skills I could make it to art school. But it's expensive as hell and a job is not really guaranteed and financial stability. 

But like I feel conflicted, yolo or just choose a safe job? Am I even supposed to have a clue about what to do? Anyways, thanks for listening to my nonsense and yapping internet!