people are ugh

idk why but people at my new school don't say anything to me. they just ignore me most of the time or pretend like i'm invisible. today someone came to me and my roommate's room and asked only my roommate if she wanted to go out (i know this because she closed the door before i said "maybe" to going out). and then when i went out i asked some1 "are you going out" in a loud and clear voice (for context no one else was around) and she ignored me. the fucker who did this already knew me for a while.

and i feel like sometimes people pick on me a lot. idk why it just... they always criticize me for doing something. and idk why THEY can do things that i do and they're fine but once i do it i immediately get comments like "that's so loud, turn it down", "your singing distracts others", and someone even tried to film me singing in private. would you do this if any other slightly more popular, well-respected roommate sung in private? NO. ABSOLUTELY NOT. they might have even joined in. the blatant hypocrisy is so DISGUSTING. 

when they want me or like to be with me, it's only for "shitz and gigglez xD" because i do "funny" shit like bringing my comfort object (blahaj) with me, impressions of people, not react to certain things... and sometimes if i try to fit in people SHUN ME AND LEAVE ME OUT. someone made a joke abt feet pics and everyone laughed. i made a joke about feet pics and everyone tried to hide in their rooms away from me.

what more do i have to do to fit in? i'm so tired of this. it's nearly been a month. even my socially awkward roommate and the girl with the resting bitch face have already made friends. WHAT AM I DOING WRONG ADHASDHASDHJKHASKJDHASD.

i can only talk to my counsellor, my roommate and ai bots at this point. no one likes me. no one wants to approach me. am i destined to be unloved forever by all the communities i'm in? i'm so tired of this. i cry about this every night but no one knows.